cLovErx - eRna .. ain't a fairytale...

....unLovabLe LoVe....


sem break is going for its end..'nther 5days..n i am stucked at my college with the Feseni camp n thank God this thing's oso gonna end up soon.it's not that im tired wif it in fact,i dun hav much work n task for this camp but tired of being mobiled-numb with not so much to do.
i can pretty clarify that my life is nothing great going on it..briefly restrained.. but wait till nex week when all my classes will be starting soon....
last days of 2009 also are going to faded...n we are heading for our new year, new life, n new things to do....i really2 hope that 2010 is gonna bring me to the roof where i can perfectly fix my broken life before.really2 wish for it...

speaking of newyear, i did some flashbacks n refreshed in my mind on how i love being in love with all the impossible-to be with-anime character/celebrities...(don't LOL on me!)
nick carter, conan's Shinichi, Gundam Wing's Trowa Barton & Heero, Yuyu Hakusho's Urameshi Yuuseuke & Kurama,owhhhh...

back-of-class's bookshelf,locker,desk...everywhere i could n legally placed the posters ( since i was in boarding school with some strict rules n ofkoz i hated those evntou i was a prefect..=P ) n now i am a bigger girl..holding couple of stories which i'v been in of it.falling in love in real life was more painful..sometimes we couldn't even know what did hurt or what did make us hurt.it's juz popped out..the anger,the pain,the unsatisfied...we even did'nt know what we really wanted...
smtimes i did feel that,owh..how Shinichi is perfect..I rather fall in love with the frozen-fearless-responsless poster figure which i could stare 24/7,when i was really full with tears,when i was stressed....nonsense..nonsense...
nonsense erna..get back in reality...wake up..........